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Nov 09, 2019, 06:20 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Originally Posted by OliverB
I just want to clarify I do not self harm, last time I did was more than 9 years ago while I lockef myself in a bathroom for 30 days (I was 14yo). Rigth now I am a bit weird but I am not having any important urge. I am safe.
I just have the urge to do it when hypomanic (mostly from non sleeping enough). I often feel suicidal due to PTSD, some of my PTSD was causes by seeing a pretty violent death (lot of blood). I am usually scared at the sigth of blood, but when hypo I find it exciting and fun. I find it interesting to see my arm from the inside when my nuts is at it greatest point. Demons talk to me encouraging me to do it.
None close to me SH.
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I can fully understand what you're describing. Again, I am not a medical professional and I do not know anything about you except what you've posted on this thread.
Maybe you have post traumatic stress disorder from a trauma or trauma in your past. That is what your situation sounds like to me.
The reason I believe that I can understand your issue is because I have a similar issue.
My diagnosis is Bipolar Disorder with PTSD. There is a possibility that I might have schizoaffective disorder instead of bipolar disorder. My psychiatrist is considering that possibility.
Are you in the care of mental health professionals?
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