It is hard to let go of our own emotions. Keep trying. It is not good to keep everything bottled up. Are you seeing a therapist? I'd consider it if you can afford it! .throb: You are a wonderful person. Don't you EVER forget that, my awesome, dear, kind annd sweet friend! I am here if you need someone to talk to and vent to. I am SURE plenty of tohers will be REALLY glad to help you as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Cardooney, your Family, your Friends, your Daughter, your Pals and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?