Thanks for the help!!

Misterpain, my dad used to be a ham radio guy my entire childhood. He had lots of ham friends. It brings back bad memories but I'll def think about it.

I had a friend awhile ago but we met when I was only spiritual. Nowadays we're opposite in nearly every way. She works for big oil, hates Obama, loves trump, & kinda pushes christianity on me.

I've seen a few somewhat similar people online but they've never replied to my messages.

Bill3, I've created communities on reddit, blogged on wordpress. Friendship sites like worldfriends, makefriendsonline, not4dating, meetme, skout. They're inactive or flooded with sex seekers, too many vulgar posts. There're a few interesting people on twitter but they're popular & don't reply. Meetup seems good but I haven't found a group that seems right for me. There're some local aspie meetups. It doesn't feel right. There're countless local meetups around here but I feel very uncomfortable around "normal" people. There're some UFO meetups but they're very far away. I'm not a big UFO fan. There're various science type meetups nearby but nothing that's caught my interest. Basically I feel very uncomfortable around normal people because I'm afraid to death they'll judge me, think badly of me, not accept me. I can't get over that now. The more abnormal a person is the more comfortable I feel around them.

Am I too picky? Like ArtleyWilkins said, it's a compatibility thing. Feeling so different makes me feel incompatible.

ughgres, ultimately I'd like to find friends where we text with each other, anywhere from 1 to maybe dozens of texts per day sharing what we're doing, working on or whatever. That would be perfect. Or even an email per day. But texting with people who are so different doesn't feel right.

WovenGalaxy, I'd love to know if I relate to others. I'd love more than anything to know how most people think and how they experience consciousness! I get this sense that most people think with emotions? Maybe that's wrong. I can't relate. Can a therapist find out for me?