Tonight should be great. I got a car on friday. Im going to be starting a new job last week i think i will love. I currently work a temp job in a metal fabricating and polishing place. 9 and a half hours a day. Metal dust in my mouth nose, ears. Makes my asthma worse. $12/hr. Angry boss and supervisor. I found out 1 hr ago i got a $15 hr full time job working as an activity aide at a very nice assisted living center on a lake. I worked previousely in homeless shelters when i was 20 and 21. Doing activities. I loved it even when seriousely depressed. Why am i so so anxious and stressed? This is a great thing! I got a six pack of beer and im on my second. I dont drink that much. The thing is, im 26, male, and great with people. Why am i stressed about leaving this s**thole job? I hate it. Also, i might be hypomanic. I always am in mid november towards christmas. Im the opposite of most bp2 folks. I get hypo in fall when the leaves get dark red and if i hear christmas music flipping through radio stations or youtune videos, the hypomanic light switches on. Then depressed in spring and summer. I got a kitten this morning. She makes me so happy. I was planning on getting her for a week or so. Already have 2 cats and 1 dog. But i spent 200 the last 2 days on stuff she probably doesnt need. I also have been smoking more cigarettes and drinking more coffee. Sleeping 6 hrs night instead of 8 and not feeling tired. I dont think its hypomania though. Or i wouldnt be this stressed. Things do feel very good. But idk if its hypomania. Just so stressed out. Im ranting. Someone help.