Thanks everyone for the support I am just so stressed.

I am very blessed to have my husband and normally he is always supportive and loving

As for all things medical ??

Our childhoods were much different... his parents simply didn’t believe in going to the doctor, you get cold/bronchitis your body will take care of it. In junior high once my husband had been sick for over 8 months she finally took him to the doctor and was scolded pretty severe about allowing him to be sick for so long he had pneumonia!! He was in a horrible car accident at age 16, someone hit him and his buddies head on. No seatbelts back then, he was lucky but in a lot of pain, he Rome numerous facial bones and his back, his mom gave him a couple days of pain meds and flushed them.

For me .. I was born 3 months premature so I had crappy lungs I weight 2lbs 13 ounces , but dropped to barely 2 lbs. this was back in 1967 so it’s surprising I made it to be honest. I never got a “ cold” it was always bronchitis or pneumonia “ to go along with it I always had ear infections, despite being seen by doctors and given meds I would be sick for weeks and weeks, to be honest my ear drums have ruptured at least 25-30 times each over the years , most recently last year. I have 50% hearing loss in one ear and just over 30 in the others. I had at least 25 sorts of tubes put in . Last pair I was 43-44 years old.

My parents had no choice but at the first sign of anything I was in the car headed to the doctor.

So much husband with his small experience you go to see doctor X and they give you a Med and no tests the med just fixes things.

Well now a days you see a specialist they need testing to determine exactly what’s going on before they just toss a “ cure all” pill.

He got very lucky with his 3 boys , they got sick a couple times a year , there mother know a couple nurses and they would get antibiotics for them. A few random broken hands or arm leg etc they were all in sports.

Now my daughter ... she unfortunately although full term gets sick like me , constant chronic ear infections. She’s also never had a cold it’s always bronchitis etc.

Our GP is willing to treat my husbands neuropathy and emphysema... because he’s doing well on the meds but if he doesn’t respond to an antibiotic etc he will refer him out. But so far he’s been lucky.

After 6 weeks of my junky lungs and doing all the standard things , there was no way to avoid seeing a specialist. The liver issue also.

I do easily get my feelings hurt and I feel like a burden... so when he can’t understand why I need seen by a specialists and having testing I’ll often wind up crying.

We just had a talk about this like 6 or so weeks ago” just ignore me when I freak out figuring how to pay for doctor bills “ we also were dragged to court over a hospital bill of his from 4-5 days ago we could never pay.

But right now ??? I just don’t want to have to “ ignore” the next time this happens I will likely stop and say “ hey ! I know it’s hard to find ways to pay for my Doctors but how about you go stress out in the bathroom so I can sit here in my comfortable chair and cry instead of being on the bathroom floor.”

It seriously would be cheaper for me to just die