I don’t know what to say right now to help you feel better but it’s not for lack of wanting to help in any way I can. I know you have lots of friends to talk to but I’m here if you ever need me. I humbly don’t think it would be cheaper for you to just die and it definitely would leave the world a sadder, worse off place. I hope things start looking up for you soon. In the meantime, I’m here and I care.