Look at it this way. Their are people who never try and stay alone all their lives. Out of fear of rejection. Look how brave you were! You are growing! Give yourself points for trying! Meeting people and finding love requires us to become vulnerable and open to hurt. Its like riding a bike. You just fell and skinned your knee. Yes it hurts. Yes it is embarrassing. But if you want to learn to ride a bike you get back on and try again.