**** YOU! POS!

Speaking in the air to really no one.

Just wanting to get it out - a relational few words that I would have LOVED TO SAY had I had the chance to say it. But I don't, and IRL I'm cool, but there are many people whom I could have said those words - MANY!

As a person with DID and PTSD, my "parts" keep telling me to "grow a pair." Well, here you go, "parts," I'm saying the two words I wish I would have said at the time, even though I really don't think that it's a thing that should be said because then it just feeds into other noxious people's egos. They like provoking a response, even if they don't like the response. What they don't like is when you ignore them, call them out (without anger), negatively reinforce their provocations, and get them into trouble with the authorities when warranted legally. That's my version of asserting myself. But, I'll play along with emotion this time, without placating my "parts." Fine, I said it to everyone who has wronged me, hurt me, or abused me, "**** you!"

(Of course, I leave room for forgiveness and apologies and all that good stuff, if warranted or the right timing.)