The one that bothers me is the pressure to celebrate. Left alone, I would read a book and eat something I like on birthdays and holidays and hang out with my pets. When well meaning people ask how I am celebrating with my toxic family, it makes me feel depressed because telling them that we don't celebrate anything together sounds depressing and pathetic. Whe old friends ask what I'm doing, I feel like I'm letting them down by telling the truth because theu shouldn't worry about me being all alone when they should be enjoying their families. I don't mind being alone, it just feels wrong when people have expectations that everyone should do the same sort of thing. And the pressure to make special occasions positive makes me more depressed when family are rude and inconsiderate than on ordinary days. Sorry to be a damper, I should probably hang out in the depression forum today.