Wowzers, that's a good rant.

Allow me to also add to the above: Welcome and I'm glad you decided to stop by and write. I think you'll find this place helpful - I sure as heck do.

I have a very similar story - I won't go into details, except to say that the places might have been changed, but it's nearly identical: Dad, college, money, step-mom, all that good stuff. I even went to my safety after not getting accepted at Berkeley. Twice. (I didn't apply twice, they rejected me twice, just to make sure I got the point). It helps, I think, to know that people have in fact gone through similar circumstances, especially if you're not getting a lot of support otherwise (except through your bf). So suffice to say, you're not alone. My girlfriend was on the opposite coast in my case, so I think I can safely say that it's a fairly close matchup.

Now, specifically, I can't help you with the money problems, but it seems to me that your dad doesn't have a good idea of what you're going through. I typically ask folks in this case if they can print out the thread and give it to the person in question. It's a surprisingly easy way to tell loved ones how you're feeling. In this case, it might not be a great idea, but hopefully you can see the value in getting him to finally recognize that you're still depressed, and are turning to sources for help. It's too easily dismissed when we're in the stage just before we go get help.

I need to get cracking on my day, but otherwise I'd write a little more. If you want, feel free to PM; I would also suggest spending some time going through the forums. There's a LOT of good advice here, and some of the most amazing supportive people in the english-speaking world.

*hug* for you and a *handshake* for your boyfriend for being an upstanding guy.