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Nov 11, 2019, 07:22 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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I am anxious almost constantly. The exception is when I am in a euphoric hypomania. Then I'm least anxious, which is one reason why I feel resentful about medication taking that state away from me.
Right now I feel bitter because I lost my "good" hypomania over the warm months, but now the same old miserable depression is slamming me down. Why do I have to give up the good only to be overwhelmed by the bad? I still don't understand that. I know; it's because the wonderful hypo will morph into "crazy." Still, it seems extremely unfair.
So, yeah...I'm anxious because something bad might happen during the next 4 1/2 hours until I can actually and respectfully go to bed at 9p.m. Rinse, repeat 
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