Im sorry I can’t relate to this but I know that it must be unimaginably miserable. I hope you can get some help by sharing this with your therapist and talking about it in general. You are a loved part of this community and you do not deserve to die, quite the contrary! You deserve a long, peaceful, joyful life and I hope that one day you will receive that!
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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