Do you really want to see him again, or are you seeking closure.

How I finally got over ex-T was my T telling me my relationship with ex-T was over. I hated my T for telling me that, but it's what I needed to hear. Do you need to hear that too? If so, from what I've read, your relationship with your ex-T is over. He hasn't responded to your communications, he's clearly still there, and you've become obsessed with him. You will probably never get the closure you deserve and need. I'm sorry you're having to go through this.