Hello Claudia. I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. Thank you for sharing these dreadful experiences with us. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support to you.

One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you will be the Complex PTSD sub-forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/complex-ptsd/

And then here's a link to an article, from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of healing from childhood sexual abuse:

Healing from Childhood Sexual Abuse

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.