Dear Pastor T: I wish we could have negotiated about the SH. Or at least come together to decide not to SH over the next three days. You made the decision for me. You said I couldn't SH. It's like you're the parent and I'm the child. You're the authority and I have to do what you said. I know you have my best interests at heart but I really don't think you understand my SH. If I go ahead and SH I'm going to feel like my faith isn't strong enough. I'm going to feel that I've disappointed you or let you down. This shouldn't be about you. It should be about me and what I need. I'm a little mad at you. I know you are trying to help me, I think you are coming from a good place. I just don't think you understand. I think you do care, and that's something. But I don't think you understand. Kit