Thank you all so much for the warm welcome.

Skeezyks, I really appreciate the time you took to write your post and provide me with some reading material, that has truly been helpful the past few days. It definitely helps to feel less "abnormal" in way.
Also, your Weepies theme song has made it to my playlist. I definitely relate.

In regards to therapy, I'm still honestly a bit terrified. However I have recently gotten my insurance information together, so I now need to look for someone to try, I suppose. Finding the motivation for that, past my fears, is really difficult. The articles you sent on that are helpful in how to choose a therapist that might be right for me. One step at a time I suppose.