Just a followup on my initial post. I brought up my therapy hangover in session and asked what his take was, and he...well...he punted. The old, "I can't tell you what I think. What do you make of it?" spiel. And he showed such little curiosity and willingness to explore what was happening and maybe felt a little defensive to me? (Or maybe I was reading that because I'm hypersensitive to inflicting hurt.) Anyway, it was all very disappointing. I'm starting to wonder if therapy will ever be super helpful for me. Like many of you here, I'm a product of childhood neglect/abuse, and the trauma runs pretty deep. I'm very high functioning, upbeat, social, etc. in real life, but clearly, have major gaps internally that I'd hoped therapy would help bridge. Maybe they're unbridgeable? Anyway, don't mean to be a downer! Just wanted to update (because I love reading updates on others' posts), and thank everyone again. All of your responses were much more helpful than my therapist's!
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