i am not without that DocPhil and i totally appreciate what you are saying... foundation is very important to me as well... i have been able to discover a few ways..... some books have taught me a lot, my internal conflict was like the literal whaling ship at stormy sea....

anchor was positively something i needed and when found, absolutely was my building area for my beliefs...

as yours also appear to be from the posts of yours that i've read....

all paths do lead imho.....