This is my second day on this site. I hope i can keep it up. My anxiety is so bad, wellm I won't call it anxeity anymore, I know what it is. It is fear. It is so bad that I have a hard tie functioning. Oh, I can see to me own needs, but I live in fear of
sojmething else happening to me. So much has the last few years. I get suicidal a good deal, and try hard to be careful with that. 'All for now.

bye