Good topic.

Now that I have (maybe) fully felt what being a "zero" feels like, and the terror and the rage that are associated with that, all of which was defended against (with my life!, feels like. and certainly an emotional life which I haven't lived fully up to to now) -- I can now "own" the anger as well. Contain it, within a larger sense of something. Hard to describe.

I am really pissed at therapists who encouraged me in the early days to "get in touch with my feelings", and express them -- not knowing what it was like when portions of an angry me were dissociated.

For me, I went with what had been recommended to me, as I understood it, including eventually, "the only way out is through".

I maybe be (somewhat) out now, but I'm old, couldn't live much when I was in that unresolved mess, and there has got to be a better way. But I do feel that accepting the anger and what it may be about is probably essential to being a full human being.