MatBell I remember a really good article about suicidal thoughts that Skeezyx once posted for somebody. I don't seem to be able to find the article (or any article) myself, but I'm going to try to get the link from him. If/when I get it I'll send it to you.

The gist of it, tho, was that wanting to end it all is basically wanting to stop the pain. Pain is a feeling. If you end yourself, you will no longer be able to feel ANYTHING. Not even relief, which is a feeling