thanks so much for your wise words.
update: i left our home and went to my moms. this bold move was for my own survival, but of course my hubster is blaming and accusing me of all sorts of things. i just simply had to get off of his rollercoaster of emotional and mental abuse. i don't know what our next step will be and i don't want a divorce because i do truly love this man more than myself.

i have been at my moms for a week now and i can tell that i'm finding my feet again. i hope to get stronger mentally and emotionally so that if i go back home we can tackle this head on and get meds changed and do what has to be done to get him balanced and our marriage back on track. that may sound a little far fetched but with out hope, i have nothing.

i definately understand about looking at old pics and of pics of our wedding day. looking at ours just leaves me bawling and sobbing uncontrollably.

thanks again and please don't be strangers
chiwawa mom