Congratulations on your second day here on PC!  I'm sorry you are struggling with so much anxiety & fear.  (I know something about these sorts of things as well.) You wrote you get suicidal a good deal. Here are links to 2 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of suicidal thinking:
How to Survive Suicidal Thoughts
How Suicidal Thoughts Can Become a Coping Mechanism
Best wishes... 
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