I think you’re being too hard on yourself. Plenty of people find new jobs intimidating, especially with only five days of training. Today, I started a new job (sort of - few snafus stopping me from starting properly) and I received NO training before I started. I am expected to just jump in and be able to take care of my student. And trust me, he is wild. I don’t even get restraint training, even though I am expected to restrain if needed. Boy, do I feel unprepared!

But anyway, even if I did have extensive training, I still wouldn’t feel comfortable. Sometimes you just have to jump in. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. The fact that you even tried to get a job after a year of not working is commendable! You’re trying, and that’s all you can ask of yourself.

I understand that recovery can be a frustratingly slow process. But try not to focus on what you can’t do, and what you haven’t done, and focus on what you can and have done already.

I believe in you!