My dad brought me to the music store which is an awesome place and I didnt feel like trying out the electric guitars or even looking at them cuz depress so I took phenibut now will take a nap and wait for it to kick in. I really hate this it's like the universe is teaching me a lesson but all the hikes i did, I was happy and care free but now I have no happy thoughts.. it makes me care more.. kill apathy and I realize that my depression my whole life has just been apathy.. not caring about anything..