I really dont know whether this goes in this category but here it goes anyways. When the abuse ended with my ex from 2 years ago I tottaly understood the concept of the nightmares. So I thought okay, so i was angry or mad. And having a little hard time adjusting to stuff so I took the nightmares for about a year. These dreams are nothing but mixed messages from his side.Not only that when these dreams happen I become confused the next day and getting all mad and angry as too why he's doing this and I start getting angry or lashing out on the people I love. I've quit talking to this pervert for 1 year and 2 months and got to say made so much of big approvments as to getting my life back together again. Now, I've put up with these dreams for 2 years now and it still wont leave me alone. I tried everything. Getting busy, going to the gym, communicating more with only my husband only. And I'm sure the last thing he wants to hear is me dreaming about this. Yes, I do still have lots of anger that i have to let go of, some might say maybe that's what's causing it. And I'm working on that releasing my anger the right way not the wrong way. I've also tried meditating and it worked for about a good 2 months but now again its starting again. I"m really at the end of my wits with this. Wanted to contact the pervert in some form and to really ask if he's got anything to talk about but I talk myself out of doing that. the last thing i need is hell comming from his side. The situation didnt end up in good terms. Now, I know this might sound cruel , I wouldn't care one bit if he died that's how low I think of this idiot. Can anyone please tell me or give me any suggestion as to how i can handel this. Does writing a letter out and speaking out loud will help. Then I have no problem doing that. Really dont. Please Help Me.
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