Feeling quite scatterbrained. I have started something like 5 responses to posts/threads here and just get distracted, lose motivation or concentration and stop. So, I am thinking of you all, but can't put it into words I guess. Not sure what my deal is, but this is affecting my work, too. I am anxious at times, but not overly so. It's more just my brain is not working. Like I forgot some very basic facts recently and was like what on earth? I should call up my psychiatrist, but for some reason am feeling like I don't want to bother him. I feel like I caused him enough stress last year with my med reactions. I know that's not a logical way of thinking about it, but I feel weird calling him back up a year later for an evaluation. I also feel a bit hopeless that something will help me and worry I am coming off as just dramatic or something. Like I am just a hypochondriac about everything. I think acupuncture would help, but it's too expensive and I cannot afford it right now. It's unfortunate, because it's a relatively side effect free way of dealing with my symptoms I have found. Oh and I am picking at my skin more again. It's gross, I know. I just keep around hand sanitizer to use when I catch myself doing it.


On a positive note I went to the gym yesterday and cooked dinner for myself today. Vegetarian "beef" and broccoli with teriyaki sauce.


Sorry, I know this post is all over the place, like my brain right now. Sending compassion!