Today I began to cry in biochemistry class.

We've been in rupture mode since your October break. All i wanted was care and comfort- not because I was one of your x number of clients, but because I was me and because of everything that I've already shared with you.

I was surprised by my own reaction and all the tears. I shouldn't have threatened to complain about you- but I could feel your anger and irritation.

My ambivalence about therapy is strong, but being all twisted is hard too.

I think it's clear I have higher needs than you can provide.

Like you've said : "you've always made a big deal about the emails"

I always thought you would be my last T- so after you I'm not going to jump into seeing someone else straight away.

P,s How do you feel about me not sending a payment for this week- when we didn't go the full 50 mins and just slightly over 24 mins plus interuptions?