you guys are the best

i can't seem to catch a break, biologically speaking... i feel pretty good today and some of yesterday, but i am still "edgey" and i am so afraid of going off at someone someplace... i can't understand myself at all...

i don't think the real me could hurt a flea... ok, well, a flea YES... they must not exist in my immediate space.. but i really do round up any other bugs and put them outside. Oh.. and i guess i am guilty of trapping/killing fruit flies.

i think i have been more defensively reactive than anything... someone says boo and i rip their head off.

it seems like feeling good and able to take on the challenges i face is paired with something dreadful.....

thanks for understanding peoples