
Nov 15, 2019, 08:10 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
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Originally Posted by MarcusAurelius
I would venture to say I have issues with emotion regulation and I’d also go out on a limb and say it’s part of our illness. I often feel like a slave to my emotions. They control me more than I control them. I’m also known to hold a grudge over simple things that most people could just toss in the “who the hell cares?” basket. My friends often tease me about how deeply and sometimes irrationally I feel about certain subjects. For example, there was a cooking contest at my work once where we had to make a recipe from the company’s cookbook. They *strongly* encouraged everyone to participate. I spent $30 to make macaroni and cheese (I know… and this was supposed to be economic cooking…) when I got there (3rd shift at 7pm) I was told the contest was already over. I wrote a scathing letter to HR about communication and inclusion and spent the rest of the week dreading work. We comically refer to it as the macaroni and cheese incident of 2014. The fact I still remember it and I still talk about it should show how passionately upset it made me.
Your example is exactly spot on! Thank you so much for sharing your experience...it sounds so familiar to me, I have goose bumps.
That’s an odd example to place in this context anyway, I guess I just wanted to vent that (again) haha. But back on track here and I think more to your point, I’ve lost friends over simpler things that what you described. My emotions seem to run deeper and my sensitivities higher than a lot of people.
Yes, mine sure do and are. It seems that long after neurotypicals have moved on, I'm still remembering and actually feeling in my body whatever happened.
I try to pretend I am not over-sensitive or emotional but deep down I have to accept that I am, and how to let things go. Like you, I’d say my emotions are extreme. My anger – while I am not violent (typically), is verbal rage, or the very opposite – internal brooding. Just like you said – something extreme destructive or just crawl into bed.
So, even if no one else gets it, I think we are in the same boat on this one. Hope I got my point across clear, I meant in not so many words to just say me too. haha
Thank you, thank you so much! I feel calmer just reading your post. I guess we're really not alone, haha. 
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