I have to have two normal, but what I consider violating procedures done next week. Not looking forward to either one! I talked about it with L today. She told me to understand that I am in control and that I get to make the decision whether or not to do them. And if I decide to do them, it's because the pros outweigh the cons. Still, I'm scared.

I'm kind of in just a sad mood. I don't know why. I'm feeling extra clingy/needy towards L. I just want to be with her.