For many months now, I have had my sessions on Wednesdays at 7pm. Last month, when I scheduled for April, the 2nd was taken at 7 so I had 6:15.

On my way out, I saw the 7:00 person and she was trying to schedule a Wednesday at 7:00 on the 30th which I already have thank goodness.

Anyway, I made a comment to the office manager (jokingly) about not giving my session slot away and he said don't worry your good for the rest of April.

Is it wrong for me to expect the same day/time from my T? Once when T was scheduling me he said "oh you like Wed. at 7" and I said yes you know I do and he mentioned something about changing his hours next year. He saw the look on my face and said it's not because of me but I take this all as some resistance regarding my schedule.

My T says he tries to be consistent with me but I can point out many times he hasn't and it is usually centered around calls or scheduling sessions. I still don't feel 100% safe and this is part of the reason why.

I am ready to just give up on this process. It's been over two years and I'm still not feeling safe and he couldn't care less. He's acknowledged that he knows I don't feel safe but has never asked me what I need to feel safe.

He's also said I could call to give him an update on my health situation so I did that this morning...guess what? Silence! It's a good thing I'm not on my death bed.

How much consistency is okay to expect? I struggle with this because I wonder if I am being demanding of his time? or asking for things he can't or won't give?

I'm so hurt right now and I try very hard not to call or ask for anything because this is what happens. In the past when I have said "I was going to call you but didn't" he says I can call...but then this happens and it sets me back.

Am I wrong to expect any of this?