Wow Summertime. I don't have words. I feel like your T really missed the ball on this one. My T probably would be seriously talking to me about hospitalization/maybe even making calling the cops on me. She takes talk of suicide (esp when you have a plan, acted towards it as you did) very seriously. I am really nervous for you, and hope that maybe you go to the ER.

By the way, the trigger thingy you have is backwards. It is [trigger]words[/ trigger] (without the space)