Having a great time today with @MarcusAurelius and just want to be wild wild wild!!! Alcohol is out as i don't like it. Drugs? I just finished an ep of having trouble making contact with reality so a big no. All i can think of to do is go to my mental health drop-in art studio afternoon tomorrow. At least there will be people there willing to have fun tho it will be a structured afternoon but maybe i can let off some energy and have some yuks.

I went to OA tonight and i think that is the last time. I "shared" for the first time and "spoke my truth" and got about what i expected back which was nothing. I don't like sharing in support groups. It does nothing for me and just frustrates me. I don't know what people get out of it. I can stay at home and say those things to my wall and it's the same experience.

It's actually harmful for me to "share" in support groups because it makes me feel ignored and invisible and i already have a lot of pain around those feelings as it is. I don't need more evidence that no one hears me and that no one sees me. Those people are all dull anyways.