I should start going the bipolar forum because I am bipolar. I rarely go to that sight. I feel my reflection looking back at me. I also have Spectrum Autism Disorder. I am anemic. I always feel exhausted and my family places burdens upon burdens on my shoulders. I grew up on a physically abusive home. They will always deny it because 34 years ago it was OK to paddle, hit, and get away with murder. I tend to overexaggerate things. I got the short of the stick. I am in bankruptcy due to bad decision making. My husband left me. I can't have kids. I can't file disability unless I find a doctor that I can pay to help me social security benefits.. Right now, my medical insurance carries certain coverages. I am in college trying to make my life better. I live in a place where bad memories always arise. When I fall in love, he asks for money. I can hardly eat everyday because I was partially laid off work for some time.
I used to work for charities and volunteer for 10 years. Now, I feel like a charity. I can't see the end of the road. I will have to meet some bipolar people to see if they can relate to my stories. My moods are irrational and painful. My emotions get the best of me because I let people in my past get the best of me. Thanks for caring and sharing.