Hi Amyjay.

I will definitely heed your advise about finding a therapist specializing in trauma. There was something traumatic that happened in early childhood, but as far as I know I had a relatively happy childhood. Sadly, I don't remember very much of it.
A big family secret came out of the woodwork earlier this year, and it really makes me wonder if there are other things that I just don't remember because no one talks about it. I genuinely have no idea why I am the way I am, and it is beyond frustrating.