I have 4 core friends who I would trust with my life. I however struggle at being a good friend (eg I struggle at staying in touch, replying to texts, meeting up). I am incredibly grateful that these friends still love me and accept me as I am. Most of the time I am too exhausted just making it through day to day life that the mere thought of being social drains/overwhelms me. The majority of my time is spent at work, with my husband, or with my pets.