i wrote down how i would like our romantic relationship to be
and thinking of you being really sweet to me made me cry so much
i feel better now though
ah i know that it would be a bad idea if these things were real
but i want to hold onto the fantasies, i feel less alone this way
that also makes me cry

i wonder if you think about me sometimes, and what you think
definitely not as much as i think of you
and maybe more negative or neutral thoughts
perhaps you are the kind of person who can more easily let go of someone
and i am probably overestimating how much you felt for me
that also makes me cry, almost

i know it is all unreal and in reality would not be as in my fantasy
i would be different you would be different
i hope you still stay in my dreams for a while before i have to let you go
that makes me cry very much