I used to do that a lot when a teenager- rehearse conversations with "people". I'm now 36. I don't do it as much. Maybe part is experience in life. But I think mostly, I was trying to control the situation by coming up with all possible outcomes of a situation before it actually happened- so I couldn't be hurt if one of them happened to happen! I remember wandering and talking outloud to "myself".

I often want to write music, too. But, although I did a bit as a young teenager, never have been able to as an adult. I wrote quite a bit of poetry as a teen, though. When I get into a manic state, I figure I can write the world's best piece of music and why hadn't I seen how before? (Not possible- brain gone "bad" when manic! lol) I've always felt, too, that I see something in the world that nobody else can. I still kind of believe it!

Only in the last six months have I been diagnosed as bipolar I with psychotic episodes. I've heard voices, but I don't have conversations with them. I did have conversations back-and-forth with "myself" in my head about 3 years ago when I saw "horror movie hallucinations" during a really stressful time. But still, these weren't actual voices I heard, like a year ago. I actually got up to see who was there! Unfortunately, when I talked back, those voices never kept the conversation going. *shrug* I was put on meds and now the voices have gone- as have the visual hallucinations. Too bad- as the dissassociative states I had gotten into were somehow quite freeing. Then again, when off meds, each episodes is worse and more scary....