My 1st therapist ever. I tried soooo much to find another one because visually she's 100% my type. Too much chemistry for me, but I couldn't get past that she specializes in exactly what I need in a pdoc. Long story short, I ended with her. Next saturday will be my 2nd session and I can hardly wait to see her but I'm determined to not have feelings for her. I'd like to know how? Just as big a part of me wants to see her as a motherly figure, which I never really had! Uggg I need someone to care for me so bad I have tears in my eyes now.... I feel like I would jump off a cliff if she asked me to.