Well today I told T a lot of stuff, not details but I told her I wanted to be the most important person in her life. That's pretty intense really. And that it was hurting me that she was getting married. She was really kind and understanding about it. She said the relationship we have is real just in a different way. At the end of the session I hugged her so tight and didn't want to let go, like, ever. And as I walked through her house to leave who was there but her husband to be!! That was awkward. But there is something freeing about saying it how it is. I haven't told her everything by any means, but she knows a fair bit now. I'm just hoping the feelings will become less intense by talking about them.