Had some clothes I was gonna give to goodwill. Been sitting in my trunk for at least 5 years.

Took it out for the first time just now. Dumped them all put. Gonna throw away the old, torn, stained stuff, and gonna wear this stuff again. I always choose extremely unique clothes. And this is like a snapshot into when i was sick. Very interesting.

The clothes are sizes 5 in pants and small and medium shirts. Which is crazy. Cuz I thought I was fat then, after high school, because in high school I was size 00. Yes, double zero. Then when I got sick the meds ballooned me to size 5 and I just kept going up.

I'm size 15 now at least. 15 or 18 pants. Probably 15 now since I lost some weight.

I know if I lose weight now and go back to 120 or 130, I vow very seriously I will try my best to keep weight off. I used to say I'd do anything, but I wouldnt. I wouldnt exercise to lose weight. I'd go about my normal routine.

But I FOR SURE, wouldnt be eating the shyt I do now. I'll eat much, much healthier. I hate my body as of right now, so, so, so much.