Oh and I do have two adult children and grandkids so I do have people to “spend time” with . But the situation with him still hurts and I just find with this being the 5th year he hasn’t cared, that I just can’t even bring myself to be talking to him during this time because I’m too hurt and angry to really be friendly, happy, loving towards him so then he’ll complain about that and it wouldn’t be much fun for me either. But I just didnt want to seem petty, I’m really not, I just really can’t personally handle it and am trying to do what’s best for me . I guess I’m wondering if it just seems ridiculous of me to not hang out etc if I know it will just be a painful time for me