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Mouse said : Its the fear of total annaliation of the self and ego that we fear when T goes away. ....Yes its hard...

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I do feel this way at this point, a year plus into therapy. Heck I feel this we between sessions sometimes. In session, I just love 'being' there, just being there feels so good.

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Imagine if T's gave into our desire to be held 24/7??? we'd forever walk around thinking that we cannot do anything alone, thats not where living is

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Well I'd be willing to try it a while anyway! lol

My T has only taken one vacation and that was at the Christmas holidays. She was gone nearly 2 weeks but the way it worked out I only missed one session. I dreaded it and felt really lost. The longer time went on, the further away from me it seemed like she was. Panic... worry...distress...

Then she reappeared and my heart filled up again.

That one hour a week is so precious to me.