Has anyone ever just woken up one day and realized that it's somehow been some inordinate length of time since you last had any shred of lucidity and you do not even have any idea what your life is like anymore or who the hell you are?

I am lost. A lot happened. I do not expect anyone to take me seriously or believe a word I say. I am resigned to and have accepted the fact that unless I start over entirely at this point, I do not have a chance in hell of being seen as anything but completely evil.