I am watching a documentary. I thought of how I would like to watch it with you. I was imagining us sitting together, my face close to yours, and being overcome with the desire to kiss you. Then it occurred to me that the feelings I have for you now are likely stronger than the feelings you have for me now, and probably (maybe?) stronger than you ever had them for me. The thought that you may not want the same things as I do had the tears streaming down my face. My feelings are only getting stronger even though I haven't seen you in a month and we terminated (in a mildly bad way).

I vaguely thought about talking to you again, then realised I am not sure if I would feel comfortable being so vulnerable to you (apart from the fact I think I'd only do it to feel closer to you).