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Nov 19, 2019, 02:58 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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My psychiatrist and therapist have agreed that my "resting state" is a mixed state of mild depression/mild hypomania. I entirely agree; it was a tremendous relief to finally be understood when I was diagnosed.
When I hit an episode it will tend to be hypomania, but also frequently slips into a full mania as far as paranoia and so on.That type of state is more common for me in the spring and summer.
Generally I experience a dysphoric mania during the fall/winter, with times of an agitated depression.
Honestly, it seems to me that my resting state is mild hm, mild d, and when those "milds" turn "major" I find myself in an amplified mixed state.
Meds certainly smooth the rough edges. Not on meds is a very dangerous place for me, as the mixture or roller-coaster ride of mania and depression are absolutely beyond the beyonds.
All in all, I am more frequently hypomanic/manic or in an agitated depression. I love the hypomanic, but it comes at a very high price and ends up with far too many losses.
Mania has increased dramatically as I've reached middle age.
I hope this makes some kind of sense. 
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