He's going to be gone next week and telling him before he leaves feels like a terrible time to bring it up. Also, we're in the mid-repair phase of a rupture that's been going on for two weeks now and me telling him that this rupture is making me feel this way feels really wrong. I feel like if I tell him, I must be doing it to be manipulative (get more attention I guess), so if I don't tell him, then I'm not being manipulative. I'm so messed up lately I don't even know what my own motivations are for anything I do.