I'm feeling so sad. I know that you, and others, believe I'm worthy and good at certain things, but I don't feel that in my heart. To me, I'm still that clumsy stupid idiot and can't see myself any other way. I get frustrated sometimes that you don't see me that way. It's like you're seeing the false act I put on and the real me - the ugly, horrible core - is hidden from you. I want you to see it so you'll understand why I feel the way I do about myself. So you'll get it.