It sounds like therapy has really helped you and you've done so well in being able to reach a point of coping better with your very difficult life situation and even feel stronger in making choices over what you might need. But I understand how the restrictions of that same situation mean that you wish you could still have carried on seeing her. It is really hard to make friendships when you have a disability and it's understandable you would miss the personal time with t. I hope things do get easier for you as you get to know more people and hopefully develop closer ties.